It's Not Always Bad...

I'm not talking about football obviously. That, in recent times, is always bad.

I'm talking about my life. I know I always write about the negatives. It's hard not to, because I purge bad feelings and thoughts through the tippity-tap of my keyboard. But really, there are plenty of good times in my life as well.

The nights when I get phone calls from Ting and we both rattle on about our lives. I love having her tell me things about her life. It's nice remembering that the girl I met when I was 13 is still in my life in a big, big way.

I look forward to getting Facebook messages from Situ. She's away so much and our lives are so busy that we don't get to catch up anymore. It makes me really sad because I genuinely miss her a lot. Her smiles and the silly stuff she says. I love being able to tell her anything, and now I do it on Facebook. God bless social media.

Work is picking up a bit. I'm not doing terribly well, but I am doing okay. I have some results from the proposals I have sent out and all. I think if I put in more effort, I'd probably be better. I just haven't gotten into talking on the phone for hours with my clients and all. I'm too lazy for that and that's probably why I don't get as many sales as I should. I admire Ting for having that patience. And good on her! I'm proud of her for doing well. Maybe I will draw inspiration from her and make more effort for the next round of trips.

James and I are starting to talk more. I think that's really important. We recently had a really really long talk about our relationship and I think being that open brought us closer, and I am glad for that. There are areas in our relationship and our individual personalities I think need to change. I don't know if anything would actually change, but I know that because we can talk about it, things are already better. This is something people say, but I think no one really understands and appreciates until they are older - it's feels really blissful to have someone you can share your life with.

The next couple of months will be tough cos I will be away a lot, won't have time to exercise and will probably be in an awful mood all the time. That's what peak period at work does to everyone I guess, but I'm also grateful for the travelling opportunities. I need to remember to be thankful for everything I have in my life. I don't want to be the miserable sod who only sees the dirt and obstacles. Everything can be beautiful if we let it.

I want to let my life be beautiful.