Disgust

At the way I am eating.
At the amount of weight I've put on.
At how lazy I've become.
At how fat I feel.
At myself.

Stop telling me that I look fine. Think me delusional if you want. Just stop saying it because no matter how many times I hear it, I'll still feel like crap until I reach my goal weight. You won't understand if you're a guy. And if you're a girl, you should know better. I'm tired of people telling me how girls shouldn't be too thin, and then can't avert their eyes when a thin hottie walks by. Just fuck off.

Yes, I'm angry at myself.